It is hard to believe it has been 7 years since my brother died.
Anniversaries are always… well, they are always something.
Sometimes they are hard and you can barely get through them, sometimes they pass more silently, sometimes the anticipation is harder than the day itself, but always it is made easier by all those who remember, who tell stories, who help remember and who help comfort.
I have learned a lot in the past 7 years, but the thing that sticks out today isn’t what was fixed, because something like that couldn’t be fixed, but instead what fills my heart is an immense gratitude for the times people have been there, with hands and hearts outstretched, willing to do whatever needed to be done.
And sometimes all that was to be “done” was to sit with us as we cried, got angry, laughed and then cried some more. Please know that your presence, your love, your kindness has helped our family heal.
This little gem is from Glennon Melton’s WONDERFUL book-
Carry On Warrior-The Power of Embracing Your Messy, Beautiful Life
(if you haven’t read it what are you waiting for?!?!)
For those of you who have been my “In Case of Emergencies” I thank you, for the nights when you heard my sobs over the phone, or in person, for those times you just showed up for a hug, for those times you sent a card to let me know you hadn’t forgotten, the random texts at Facebook messages at just the right time, for those times you would offer to take me out to dinner to get away from it all, I knew I was never alone. And for that I can never thank you enough…
Thank you for not taking away my pain, but being willing to walk through it with me.
Thank you for all the times you hurt for me, and yet you did the hardest and most loving thing, to let me have my sacred journey and instead reminded me (early and often) that I wasn’t alone.
Thank you to all of my In Case of Emergencies… you are so very precious to me.